Beauty in the Breakdown?

Let go- Frou frou

[via FoxyTunes / Frou Frou]

I've spent the last couple of hours imagining. Thinking about what could be going on in my life right now. Picturing. Projecting myself into it, and experiencing it.

I'm trying to fathom the idea of being in a relationship. One where there is caring, and touching, and looking out for each other. One with discussion, and similar perspectives, and complimenting traits. One with listening, and questioning, wanting to "know." One with patience, and imperfection, and humanness; with compromise, and consideration, and "thereness."

It terrifies me. Too much to risk. Too much to gain, and then lose. But I know I'll do it anyway. And I'm pleading in my mind that he just be smart enough to walk away before it's irreversible... because I'll do it, and then be in too deep to walk away myself.

I can't give you what you're looking for

In too deep to walk away

too far gone to ever stay

There's no way, no way to win

I swerved but you crashed into me

right into a trainwreck

People like to rubberneck

And they're already staring, already staring at me

Don't come any closer

I'll break, I'll break I swear

I have a fear of falling

I can't get any air

Nothing lasts forever

And it always ends the same

Don't come any closer

Just leave me this way.

Leave me this way.

You can't break what I don't give you

broken hearts with warranties

Are all too distant history

For me to pretend, me to pretend

We're too old to claim naivety

nothing ever stays the same

I don't need someone new to blame

for breaking, breaking my heart

Don't come any closer

I'll break, I'll break I swear

I have a fear of falling

I can't get any air

Nothing lasts forever

And it always ends the same

Don't come any closer

Just leave me this way.

Leave me this way.

I can't give you what you're looking for

In too deep to walk away

too far gone to ever stay

There's no way, no way to win