Duffy - Mercy(Official Music Video)
I don't even know what to write about today. It's Saturday. I'm chillin at home. Playing Facebook scrabble with the roommate who moved out last weekend. Feeling antisocial. I'm really confused. And I knew that this was what was going to happen. I'm not ready for anything real. I have panic attacks, which cannot be good. I need to take a step back before I totally freak. I hate that I've become so cautious, but it's the only way I know how to keep my shit together.
It's not that I totally want to bail, I'm happy with the way things are. I'm just feeling really far too invested far too soon, and I need to breathe. I can't just throw caution to the wind and go with it...
So I will take the weekend to myself, and try to keep perspective. You can only ever deal with the "now" and right now there's no reason to panic. Cam and I will hang tonight, I'll stay at home for the comfort of it. And tomorrow will bring what it brings...
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