I'm going to try taking note of things in my life that keep me from feeling in control of it. I'm pretty sure that's part of the reason I'm having a hard time finding my way right now. I don't feel like I hold all of the cards. I don't feel "free" enough to move forward.
Number one on my list right now has got to be that C - that's my ex - is still living in the spare bedroom. Well, back living in the spare room really. He was gone for a couple of months. Then he came back. We never got back together, I never entertained the thought after February 29th, but he's living here. Long story, all due to circimstances. Those circimstances have passed. I need him out.
Number two. My mother. Not always, just right now. Maybe it IS always, but I'm not proud if it is. I'm not ready to disclose why, and I'm not 100% sure what to do about it. But I know it has to do with control, and I know I need to deal with it.
Number three is my job. Isn't that universal though? Fixing that will have to wait.
Number one on my list right now has got to be that C - that's my ex - is still living in the spare bedroom. Well, back living in the spare room really. He was gone for a couple of months. Then he came back. We never got back together, I never entertained the thought after February 29th, but he's living here. Long story, all due to circimstances. Those circimstances have passed. I need him out.
Number two. My mother. Not always, just right now. Maybe it IS always, but I'm not proud if it is. I'm not ready to disclose why, and I'm not 100% sure what to do about it. But I know it has to do with control, and I know I need to deal with it.
Number three is my job. Isn't that universal though? Fixing that will have to wait.
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