Songs About Me

You know how some songs just really "get" you? Like they were written by a kindred spirit and sent into the universe to provide comfort or understanding when you needed them the most. Maybe that's just me. But at any rate, my life has been a series of songs. Some have helped get me through, some have cheered me on. Some have cried with me, some remind me that there is so much more to life than that.

First of All, the last 5 years of my life with C is definitely deserving of it's own list:



I sang this song at the first Christmas Party C and I went to as a couple. We'd only moved in together a few months prior, and we were so in love! I remember being so nervous that I couldn't eat. And I remember J running up to the front of the stage while I was up there, and rocking out like some sort of retarded groupie. She brought backup with her and everything. Such a great friend for so many years. C and I were really happy then, and I don't want to forget that.


We listened to this album like thirty times on our first road trip. We had so much fun on that trip, camping and fishing and drinking Mountain Crest beer by the flat lol.

Room With A View - Carolyn Dawn Johnson: I can't find this song anywhere on You Tube. But it's the song that I relate to losing C's dad. He was diagnosed with cancer about a year into our relationship, and he came to live with us during treatment. We lost him in 3 months. That's when everything sort of shifted.

C's dad asked for this to be played at his wake.

For a long time, this is how I felt about C. And I think it defines what it was like for us to go through losing his dad and finding our way back to each other. The breakdown lay in the fact that he started hiding things, and I was out to lunch.

This was the last concert C and I saw with his dad. And this was going to be our wedding song.


I'm not a big Rihanna fan, this is the only song of hers I like. But it totally fits how I felt when the truth came out...

This song is everything that I feel at my heart of hearts when it comes to C. I've listened to it about a zillion times. It is so true to how it feels to lose something so precious, and know that it's over for good.


This is how I feel when I'm being strong and in charge of my emotions. It's still honest, just a tougher version of me.

Those last 2 are just sort of home hitting heart breakers. I feel that shit right now ROFL.

So now for the rest of my life. There are so many that I'm sure this post will expand in time. But for right now, I know this:

My sister played this song for me the first time I flew out to visit her. I was 16 I think. I fell in love with Marvin. We both still love this song. It's been my favorite for 12 years :)

This is the first Paul Simon song that I fell in love with. I had no idea that it would be the beginning of a life long passion for Paul and his music.

The first country song I ever liked.

I dated this guy in tenth grade for like 2 weeks. It felt like this song lol. That was the first time I remember feeling this way. It's since occurred to me that that moment was an awakening into the world of men.

My buddy Big Sexy and I use to host Name That Tune together. One of us would always spin this tune. It makes me happy. It's Marvin, it's groovy, and the title says it all.

This song is so fun, and reminds me of one of the most hysterical scenes I have ever been a part of. My old friend Renee and I were in the back of Big Sexy's car, I must've been twenty, and we were doing zoomers. It was her first time. Big Sexy was totally straight and driving down this back road away from the cemetery we were just in checking out the meteor shower. In my mushroomy haze, I'm convinced he's doing like 150 kph, and he's really doing 50. So he cranks this song, and Renee and I start singing along, except she thinks it's the George Michael version. When the chorus hits and the screaming starts, Renee starts laughing hysterically. She's crying, and hitting my leg, and I think she may have peed a bit. So funny.

This song is really bittersweet for me. It is a beautiful song. It "belonged" to me and a man that I dated when I was a far different person. I wanted to think that I had helped him through some hard things, and maybe that is true. But he was not very nice to me, and I have more than emotional scars to show for it. After I left, I kept in touch with him long enough for him to take me to Tim's concert. I had a great time there. I never spoke with him again.

Went to this concert with my friend K. She helped me get out of a really bad situation once. She may have helped me save my own life. This song reminds me of some really great times we had together.

I still sing this song to this day. I'm really good at it. And the lyrics speak of something I can relate to.

I was singing this song at my Karaoke show when Blair walked in to see me. We've been playing together ever since. People used to request that I sing it every night at that bar. And I was happy to do it, because they'd LISTEN to me. That was so foreign back then. I still love to sing for people. This song reminds me of myself. Everything about it. I was once very young, and very very stupid. I am wiser now. This reminds me of that.

I fell in love with this song the first time that i heard it. Then right after I got out of my worst relationship EVER, I made out with this really hot guitarist to this song. mmmmm. Need that at that junction of my life :) Then I met D, my ex before C. He loved Blue Rodeo, and I grew to share that with him. I think he was a good man. Just not good for me :) Anyway, this I really relate to this song. It's sexy, it's honest, and it just feels real to me.

Let's see. I danced for 16 years of my life. My mother was a dancer. My sister is STILL a professional dancer ( and not the dirty kind!) And I've closed most of my shows with this song for the past 6 years. It is definitely part of who I am. Plus ,my life soundtrack wouldn't be complete without an homage to Blair, who worships Elton.

The closest thing that I can relate this song to is me and J. Our friendship really is that solid, and that special. But this song is how I want to feel about the man that I marry. And I want him to feel it right back.

Of Course, my soundtrack wouldn't be complete without the music that I've poured straight from my soul. It's not always very good, but my music has always gotten me through. I don't have a lot of it on record. just in my notebooks. But here's a few from years ago.

This song's pretty cheesy. My buddy dan was just picking away, and I had this melody stuck in my head, and we turned on the recorder and just laid this down. Then we laid the keys after. It was pretty funny, so we kept it. Instant song. Cheesy song, but instant song :)

Renee came over one day, and sat down with her guitar, played the first part of this song, and asked for help. I was so moved by it, that I just started to spit out words to finish it. The whole thing took maybe a half hour. I love it, because I remember at the time how honest I felt writing it. We wrote it for Renee and her husband. I understood how she felt, and this song felt powerful to me.

This one's not finished! And ironically enough, I think it's my favorite. I wrote it at the very beginning of this summer fling. I was so attracted to him! And yet we kept toying with each other. I think I was 21. I couldn't quite finish it when I wrote it, I didn't know what I wanted to do with it. And now I think I can hear how it should go.

I think that's enough memory lane for now. This has taken me forever!