I have not posted in 3 weeks for a very simple reason. I FAIL At COMMITMENT.
This has included - but not been limited to - the following undertakings... all of which I have been "determined" to stick to at one point or another:
Catholicism quitting smoking, budgets, learning instruments, quitting my job, dinner dates, New Year's resolutions, confrontations, secret keeping, relationships.....and a great big fucking ETCETERA.
I need to start exploring why I do that. And I definitely need to keep writing, and not be so delinquent! I have so many updates...
I'm still a total phreak. I spent $420.00 at the sex toy shop. I have been sexually repressed I guess? I'm liberated now? Or Sarah (mentioned her here when she was in a very different place - now she's divorced and sleeping with 24 year olds. She's my idol.) has just been a super bad influence on me. First the brazilian, now the toy shop. WTF is happening to me?
D and I are backing off a bit. Too much for me. Again, I fail to commit. But this one's different... I'm not willing to repeat certain mistakes and I have to be responsible for my decisions. I'm glad that I haven't let myself get too caught up in it to not think clearly. We're still seeing each other, just less often. Except I saw him Friday and I'll see him tonight. May still be a bit much.... I don't know, I guess we'll see.
Work currently sucks. I don't even want to talk about it.
Oh yeah, and I started writing this post last week, but then never posted it... mainly because I failed to follow through with completion when I first sat down:
This has included - but not been limited to - the following undertakings... all of which I have been "determined" to stick to at one point or another:
Catholicism quitting smoking, budgets, learning instruments, quitting my job, dinner dates, New Year's resolutions, confrontations, secret keeping, relationships.....and a great big fucking ETCETERA.
I need to start exploring why I do that. And I definitely need to keep writing, and not be so delinquent! I have so many updates...
I'm still a total phreak. I spent $420.00 at the sex toy shop. I have been sexually repressed I guess? I'm liberated now? Or Sarah (mentioned her here when she was in a very different place - now she's divorced and sleeping with 24 year olds. She's my idol.) has just been a super bad influence on me. First the brazilian, now the toy shop. WTF is happening to me?
D and I are backing off a bit. Too much for me. Again, I fail to commit. But this one's different... I'm not willing to repeat certain mistakes and I have to be responsible for my decisions. I'm glad that I haven't let myself get too caught up in it to not think clearly. We're still seeing each other, just less often. Except I saw him Friday and I'll see him tonight. May still be a bit much.... I don't know, I guess we'll see.
Work currently sucks. I don't even want to talk about it.
Oh yeah, and I started writing this post last week, but then never posted it... mainly because I failed to follow through with completion when I first sat down:
Mexico
Wow.... where do I even START!!!
Left on the 14th, got back on mom's birthday, the 21st. It was fucking beautiful. And a drunken disaster.... but when I hear free margharita's oceanside, can you blame me?
For starters, this was the view from the Lobby:
And this was the first of about 200 Coronas I consumed with Cam.... on tap!
The pool....
And here's Oscar in some shade....his hat reacted poorly to the sunlight.
The Beach at sunset....and a rare glimpse of me in a photo. I truly think that being up at 4 am and on a plane all day is one of my best looks.
Oscar at the bar
Still...
My cousin, about 20 minutes before he tied the knot:
The flower girl and ring bearer:
Seriously, they are so adorable
And the beautiful bride:
The ceremony... this was the most perfect wedding I have ever seen.
The first dance - under the stars on the beach:
And this was the first of about 200 Coronas I consumed with Cam.... on tap!
The pool....
And here's Oscar in some shade....his hat reacted poorly to the sunlight.
The Beach at sunset....and a rare glimpse of me in a photo. I truly think that being up at 4 am and on a plane all day is one of my best looks.
Oscar at the bar
Still...
My cousin, about 20 minutes before he tied the knot:
The flower girl and ring bearer:
Seriously, they are so adorable
And the beautiful bride:
The ceremony... this was the most perfect wedding I have ever seen.
The first dance - under the stars on the beach:
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