Sometimes...

I've had a lot going on. I'd end that sentence with "lately" but it doesn't feel like that. That word implies that only recently I have had a lot going on. It feels like longer than recently. But the recent going ons include the fact that today was my last day in my position with my team in the building that built over 6 years of my career in. Tonight, our company moves to a new place, and so do I. It's crazy. So I don't wanna think about it. I wanna think about sometimes...

• I wanna get laid really badly sometimes. LATELY, a lot of the time. It's really funny. Apparently when you're nearing thirty and have been alone for several months, weird things happen. Who knew? Men start to look different to you. You start to think about sex way more than you did as a teenager. Ideas that you would NEVER really consider acting on pop into your head. Like, you're sitting in a lounge having appys with a friend, and see a relatively attractive man at a table a few feet away... and you seriously imagine walking up to his table and asking him to....well, you know....It's horrific.

• I'm an introvert sometimes. I know that truly, you are either an introvert or extrovert (personality type wise blah blah science or something) and I am definitely far into that "extro" category, but sometimes I still really want to be alone to recharge. I can't always keep my energy going by interacting and keeping company. Lately, I've just wanted time to myself.

• I get on these crazy reading kicks sometimes. Seriously, CRAZY. It'll start with one good book that I get as a gift or pick up because it's caught my eye. Then when I finish it, I'll just want more of it, so I'll go on this mad hunt for every book I can find by the author, and want to read them all in a day! I've done 2 books of a trilogy in 4 days. And I've worked everyday. It's stupid. I was late for work finishing my chapter this morning. I can't help it!

• Sometimes I'm scared I really will be the crazy cat lady. I know, therapy right?

• Sometimes everything just feels as it should be. Sometimes everything is calm, and peaceful, and in control. Sometimes I feel so damned determined, and so successful at what I've done with myself. I love that place in my life right now. I love payday. No more dread. I love Fridays when I haven't over committed on them. Today isn't one of those Fridays, but I just turned off my phone. The world can go away. I'm enjoying my sometimes right now.